Funny Follows Me

What’s the hardest decision you’ve ever had to make? Why?

My hardest decision I had to make was to take control of my weight almost 20 years ago, and get a RNY gastric bypass.

It was a very risky surgery, but at 29 years old I truly had died being 268 lbs. I left the decision up to insurance and it took 2 years from the time I inquired about it till the actual surgery. I was inspired by Carnie Wilson, Star Jones and Al Roker.

I had such push back not to do it from family and friends but ultimately I decided it was now or never.

I woke up after surgery and the room was completely white and I saw nobody and heard a lady crying out in pain. I looked to my side to see if I had wings and was dead. No such luck. I was alive and had woken up so fast after surgery, there was nobody I could see and that was the scariest moment of my life.

I did die that day because my life was reborn and my mouth was no longer used for food but to voice my opinion and tell the world what was bothering me. I found my voice but lost all filters. Thin people are mad because there not stuffing their feeling down with food.

Shortly after surgery, everything worked and I lost 108 lbs in 6 months. There are still days I forget how big I was but luckily I have pictures to prove to people that being heavy in a thin world is a horrible way to live.

I’ve had some setbacks and complications but if I hadn’t had the surgery, I would of died from a heart attack by now.

It was a tough decision but a decision that saved my life and gave me 20 more years of life. Even, if I die younger, the rewards well outweighed the risk.